I shut my eyes. Tight. It wasn’t you.
As his hand slid over my breast, and he moaned, it wasn’t you.
His hand slid over my belly, dipped down into my valley, my eyes just got tighter and I turned my head, willing his eager face out of my mind.
He moved on top and his head buried deep in my neck, his mouth breathing hot air, his tongue darting in and out and I groaned. Where are you?
Why aren’t you here? Why aren’t you him? Why isn’t he you?
He entered me and my body gave in to the pleasure, gave in to my weakness and I begged my body to respond quick, begged my body to hurry up and get mine.
And within minutes, as he moved against me, grinding on me, filling me completely, my body released, pushing against him for that extra inch that would give me that extra mile.
And still my eyes remained closed. Wide shut. Your pretty face in my head, looking deep into my eyes, that smile spreading on your face, asking for my want, asking for my need, asking for me to give myself, your voice in my ear, your scent on my pillow, your touch on my skin.
But you weren’t here.
Because it wasn’t you.